Safe

I really am somewhat at a loss to succinctly and eloquently express what has happened over the last 24 hours, to say how I feel and what I have been through. Maybe in time I will be able to put something together.

Bottom line, I'm in the 2 out of 5 pool, in fact I was number 1, so I have effectively been given a promotion as opposed to being made redundant.

I'm happy about the good news I've received but gutted for my friends, some really close, who have not been so fortunate as I.

So my thoughts and prayers are with others right now...

And my thanks goes to everyone who has helped me through this time, you all have played your part and I would have been lost without you. Much love.

Am I a 2 out of 5 or 3 out of 5?

Next week I will find out whether I am in the pool of 2 or 3.

If it's the 3 I've been made redundant, if it's the 2 I'm safe.

Either way things will be strange, 3 out of the team of 5 I'm in will be leaving so that will be a huge change but also whatever happens we'll all be working together for another 6 months while the work gets outsourced and we train up the new people. Potentially weird ole situation.

I'm not really nervous about what will happen. We wait and see if the management rate me as a 2 out of 5 or a 3 out of 5. If it's not the former then so be it, my identity and peace of mind is not determined by them. My hope is in the Lord, to borrow from the psalmist, I lift my eyes to the hills, where does my help come from, my help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth.